bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

Just now I nearly burst into tears. Looking back at an old girlfriends friendster. Read an old testimonial for you that I wrote, read the new ones that others wrote as well. Thinks are different know, so different. We’re no longer the friends we used to be. I regret the fact that when u flew off, I sent a good bye message to the wrong person. The fact that I didn’t give myself the chance to understand u all over again. The fact that we used each other. If only things could be easier. It’s weird. That most of us ,wear masks, to pretend that everything’s alright, smile, to pretend we like this person when we think otherwise. You know after it all, you’ll look back and realize thing’s ain’t complicated, we only make them. It’s official, I’ve got the most wonderful brother in the world. Well Brandon said he’ll buy me the Mao Zedong cap. Of course I don’t need him to do it, I’ll cough up the money. But the fact that he offered… sweeeet. That definitely brought a big smile to my face!