bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

Mixed feelings Only managed to catch some wink eye at 6am today, yar had to do some work for chris and talk to bing and al. Got to know bing a little better, didn’t know he had so much on his mind. Reminded me of the childish issuses that I used to have with ***. Haha well that’s passé, I hope my experiences helped bing. Al was sweet enough to chat with me, even though I guess he was pretty tired after all that cycling. Was woken by Kim at 12.30, haha, hope I didn’t piss her off too badly for coming late. Sorry dearie. Stayed at Starbucks to chat and study. Sigh, starbucks always brings back sweet memories. Home sweeeet home. Escapades with andre, crapping with the gang. Oops side track, yar my chat with Kim made me realize a lot of stuff. Her woes and the way I feel about this le garcon. (which i’ve been avoiding cos I know I’ll regret what I say later. I predict when it’s over I bet I’ll fall for this le garcon and it’ll be too late- It always happens) Feel pretty bad cos I doubt I was able to make her feel any better. She doesn’t know this, yea but I plan to treat her to scrumptious cheese cake to cheer her up, later when I meet her at starbucks again. Can’t wait for that! Last thing worth mentioning today, got a big bro! Yay! Happy Happy! Though to me it sounds pretty bengish/ lianish that some1 asked me to be his lil sis – I still feel like a million dollars. Feel pretty honoured cos my big bro’s real cool! Haha, yar I sound like a lil kid. I’ll stop embarrassing myself now, got a headache, gona go to bed. * how i really feel i guess you'll never know. believe me i'm dying to say, to tell you that one thing that will make you stay. but i guesss maybe another day. cos it'll be unfair to keep you a stray. the wait's been your silent killer, your little demoraliser. my heart achs for those days, to just go away. i am the reason, the cause for all the pain. God teach me the words to say, so maybe you'll no longer pain but gain.