bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

Poly pretty much is quite screwed up again. Every year, i'll tell myself, hey i'll be consistent, pay attention and then a month later... "haha" that's what my negative side will always say. Yar, my life's a mockery. I'm always planning stuff but when it comes to getting them done... what stuff was i planning to do again...? Right now, i've been tasked to compile all the 30 surveys from my group mates, standardise them and come up with a draft 1. Why me? My big fat mouth wanted to help out cos i've been MIAing quite abit. Never did i expect to get myself into so much shit. It's almost ten now. My group's suppose to have an online conference, however not a single soul's in sight. And they' re ususally online. Don't really blame them. Captain Hooks at a concert. Pocky went to the gym. Rebecca doesn't know about the arrangement cos i forgot to inform her. Janet's probably asleep after her 5 day shopping spree.. and David... he's suppose to send me stuff at 8. Well, i can't say i'm very focused either. Haven't started on my part of the job yet, been chatting ignorantly away with people like Kim, Simon, Al, Giap, Andrew, Nicky and people who bother to look me up and talk endless crap with me. Right now, i'm chatting with Nicky whose finally got his pao pao che- pearly. Can't say i'm not happy for him, i sincerely hope it was the worth the wait. Kinda sad too, cos i remember the fun we all used to have years ago hanging out, sneaking into theaters, throwing popcorn and even all the crap at starbucks. What's sadder is i'm no longer part of it. well, i'm looking forward to the future now. Nick says we'll all hang outwhen his a levels are done. Al, whose saliva i can almost swear can turn into honneeey, who keeps talking about gelares, mr noesy and red apples. I think it's really neat that even though i don't really know him very well, i'm able to confide in him, get good advice ;) and yar basically be honest. Life sucks when you got to wear a mask where ever you go. That's sad i hope i never have to do that. Gottogo try stay focused now, Captain Hook and david are online...