bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

Title: Yes, rain drops fall. Yesterday, i felt contented with my life. Now, everything's F-ed up. All goes to show how humans can never be satisfied. +Had lunch with yu yin my dearest ang ku kueh, at SP, got to meet her friends and stuff, yea that was fun though it was short. I miss her, had a good short mini catch up. think if i can, i'll join her for lunch once a week. SP's food ain't that bad anyway. +Mao Tay, a good friend of mine asked me to be his partner for some army gathering. -Met Xin, Joey & Simon in town, was pretty disappointed as i was looking forward to shopping and hanging out with xin and the rest but nth turned out right. Feel that xin and i are too used to each other that we start neglecting each other's feelings. Starting to feel that if i get to close to people, unpleasant things happen. Only 3 good things came out about from my gathering with them, 1) i saw this really unique cap at mambo that looks like mao zedongs one. It's not cheap for a hat, so i'm gona show a whole lot of ppl what they think of it before i buy it. I'm afraid my queer taste might make me regret my decision later. Just blew 300 few weeks back over smth like that, so i'm not going to make the same mistake again. Man, i just can't get it out of my head. 2) Yang reminded me how to visualise and draw lines on the table. I'm one step closer to playing the game right. 3) i didn't buy anything although i expected to buy alot of stuff. All the stuff i was so excited about purchasing was put down. =( -Quarrelled with my dad again, and all i can say is F F F. Although i know i shouldn't be cursing, i'm finding it pretty hard to kick the habit. -Joel asked me if i want to go for the party on Sunday, where he says “ be like 100 over people, beer on the tap, food and…” basically at eight, they’ll be a lot of drunk ruggers sprawled all over C.H. I give it a minus because, I want to go but I don’t think it’ll be wise for me to trample on unfamiliar ground. Besides I’ll be at sentosa when the party starts and will be arriving late. As you can clearly see, I’m still struggling: to go or not to go (think it’s by hamlet? haha) -Hiang Hwa, my old buddy just redid my webpage for me. So sweeet of him yea. Mix feelings about it, cos it’s not really me. Don’t know how to tell him. Cos I actually wanted to just add stuff. Tell me what you thing yea? I want to add archives more pictures and a tag board. Anybody know how? Minus 4 : Plus 2