bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow: weird-regret-afraid yet still smiling baby ;)

_Thursday, September 02, 2004
[weird-regret-afraid yet still smiling baby ;)]

This feeling is weird, I feel cheated, a little regret yet happy for you. Maybe a lot more regret because I was never given the chance to get to know you better and yet not lead you on. I find myself looking out for you, yet I know this ain’t meant to be. I miss your company, your way with words, your attention and most of all being your friend. I guess I’ll just have to store you in the file of my many regrets. It’s sad, we might never have the chance again. Yesterday, was teacher’s day. I met some friends, some teachers. It was sweet, yet yea again I regret not seizing the opportunity to catch up with my friends more. The only few people I got to really catch up with where my old buddy and best friend, one of those guys I’ll trust with my life, LESLIE! Yes, the model. I miss those times we would talk during recess, hang out after school, do those crazy things. The way you, xing, shaun and ong would fake break. Your jokes, walking around town, making a fool of ourselves, acting gay, getting chicks numbers, seeing u get rejected by some, crazy bowling-the stunts we did, the para para we made u do, the calls you would pick up for me and pretend u were this muthu, or that ahmad “ sorry, wrong number” or “why you disturb my girlfriend?” in a so un-chinese voice, our few hour conversations, the way you talked with my lil bro. Yeah miss it all! Miss the gang! Met up with Gerald also, suddenly he’s body is dam toned and nice know. Still playing soccer professionally, reminded me of Sports com, I talked to mr muru, he said it’s know changed to sports leaders. Haha. I remember those trips to taman nagera. Best times ever! Calvin, remember those times we used to work at taka then we’ll wait for each other to go makan. You, zhou, me, all those QTSS ppl. Haha. Go to TP for what sia? Haha. Hmm who else, I had a nice chat with Mr Lee, Mr Loh, Our Mrs Yeong-Nicole Kidman, still the same cracking lame jokes. Biggest regretSsss, Vanicek, Wilson-sorry I came late, Ming Shan, Jee Cheng, Jian Wen, Chia Min, Adelynn, Jee Cheng, Hue Min, who else… all my A class friends, sigh I miss you guys although I didn’t show. Sorry babes, couldn’t join you guys for west coast. Hope to meet you guys hang out, yea but you’re all so busy with JC! Sigh. Oh Yup, met loads of ppl, Jo-ee! Niko, didn’t know you flew back from the states! Ryan! WeiYe! Jackson! Desmond! Benmin! Frederick! Brice! TK! Wailin! PeiShan! Alerice! All the prefects! I see you guys are making FULL use of the alumni room, the stereo, I miss the old wheel chair inside. Haha. Loads of other ppl!!! Tomorrow? 88.3? I’m so nervous. I heard Kim today. Her voice was sweet and she was hot. The things the DJs said about her were funny yet complimented her character very well. The riddle you asked sounded dirty though, couldn’t understand it! Well no matter what you think, you rocked hard tonight. Honest! Tom’s my turn. Sigh. Scared. Scared. Scared. It’ll be comedy night for sure. Haha.