bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

F Y WF. Go F yourself. I don’t get it. Why can’t be rain without the thunder and sunshine without those harmful uv rays. You got me all pissed and sour, why can’t there be some talking and less shouting. Why can’t you stop complaining because it’s not my fault you have three f monkeys and you have to work till f 10pm. Who the f said you can placed all your fire from work at home. So what, you won’t get pity, no way the obedience if you don’t know how to treat anyone with respect f-er. That’s good bye to haloweeen. If I could choose to be a monster, I might consider you, paint my face as black as thunder and hug tightly to your precious camera. A more positive side of life besides the fact that I’m broke and I have a lousy job, Saturday till Wednesday has been goooood. Saturday was sos where we had a supposedly all girls night, sheena, cleoy, stephaye, Eunice, yao ping all the flower power with the fakies. With us going our separate ways in the end cos we couldn’t find each other in the club. Got the chance to dance with my darling and of course a little catching up, plus plus alan, han yao, shaun, and even sarah who was so so hot! yes, finally alittle clubbing with my bud buds. Well then I made a mistake of… oh nvm… but I’m never going to do that again. Sos could have been better if the music beat was faster, the air con maybe colder and the bar more bartenders with more drinks. I found myself downing dreadful burben so I could dance better. Sunday, busy busy, janesh and I got Ronald a sexy pink auntie one piece suit with extra padding and fags as nipples-nice! Seems like a lot of guys liked the image and all tried it on too. I didn’t expect to have so much fun but it was fun alright, Raymond got me laughing till my stomach ached with the “come come come” and there was that chaomuntising experience. The chocolate cake I bought which someone happily fed to my face, hair, cloths and also contributed a hell lot to me falling down-yupyup but all in good fun. Plus the bruises from platform fighting, the bumpy bike rides from awfully gentlemanly people-that’s got my butt aching, the sore throat from sharing drinks, the little sleep, the games, the sharing and the friends. Then it was my dearest sally’s birthday, good movie, good company, good dinner and most importantly good reminder that you’ve got my back and hey we’re all here for each other- core group buddies. Haha like bryan would say best buddy group leader and partner. Haha. Today it was shopping with lynette, I enjoyed myself, it started with fail that I’ll get hurt once again, but today we started all over I had fun-thank you. Even though I found myself spending money I didn’t have once more. I have got to stop since I’m really really broke now. “People who understand that life isn't about how cool or popular you are, but how happy you really are.” I found this line somewhere on friendster. People should think this way. Past few days has got me thinking, realizing stuff that I never really got down to thinking about. What I really want, what I don’t, what I want to hear from people and what I don’t.