_Thursday, October 14, 2004

Today was an emotional rollercoaster for me. Tears nearly flowed out of my single lids when I left starbucks. If only I could turn back time… We’ve both changed, that’s undeniable. We made mistakes. Please don’t doubt me anymore. I really want things to be better then they were before.

If not for the company I willed myself to be with, it would have rained buckets today. All thanks to my newly founded group of study buddies. And it was good, cos we joked around and stuff and I just felt really comfortable about hanging out with them- I can be myself. Thank you!

What’s new? I got a low paying job. And the only reason I’m staying in the job this time is because I have friends working with me. I’m not very happy about the whole thing cos I’ll be working short hours with little pay. I need something with big bucks and long hours during the holidays, I want something like that. But maybe God has a plan for me… we’ll see… maybe I’m bound to be a pauper… haha what smoke.

Filming, 5 pathetic minutes. 4 lovely people showed up. I didn’t expect the other people to get their friends down but they did. Owells felt alittle weird about it but it was alright. I didn’t think I’ll get the printer but I did. I honestly thought she would get it. I quite enjoyed my last minutes with her cos we were alittle crazy together. And I liked the fact that we really gave each other morale support and there wasn’t an air of competitiveness. Anyway Guess the burden of printing notes for my class shall now be bestowed onto me.

Lastly, after tonight, I received quite abit of messages from total strangers as well as friends request. I guess I should be happy, but I actually find it quite sad. That people keep forgetting looks are only skin deep. Yes first impressions do count but still… if only the way you look didn’t matter…

darling scribbled at 2:30 AM
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