bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

I don’t know. Today I laughed till my stomach ached, fun with jie ren(awfully funny), shawn and janesh. But when I got home, the feeling just succumbed me. And it’s not something I can shake away, but something I have to something about. Yet I feel so helpless. It’s just not knocking on my door. And my current commitments don’t make shit any better. Few minutes back, I saw someone kill his good friend, as a sacrifice to save the whole earth from a virus (a show), before that a movie, which had a mother killing people to protect her family. Things out of the ordinary, sad, true, just doesn’t make me feel any better.