bottled up thoughts in maroon and yellow

It rained internally within me today. I made the final decision but didn’t I say no fucking tweety? FUCK FUCK FUCK I didn’t get purple either. Thank God for caps. Maybe it ain’t so bad just got to get used to it. Still fuck, the outpouring externally will begin any minute now… Things hasn’t been a bed of roses, everything is fucking up. I’m just irritated with everybody, anything, and all my friends. I wish people would stop being sticky and stop thinking their helpless when their not. Cos being patient and understanding without having to get or show your irritation sucks, I want to be selfish just for a change. Fuck I won’t and I will try my best not to vent frustration on anyone cos no one deserves that. Worst? I just found out a friend of mine got stabbed and is in hospital, the day started well but just ended in the dumps.